Around four years ago I stopped drinking alcohol for the sake of my health. Yet I am not a recovering alcoholic, nor did I have an emotional attachment to it. The reason may surprise you...

a non-alcoholic bottle of wine and a wine glass next to a vase filled with fresh flowers.
Non-alcoholic wine - the sober life.

When I was younger, alcohol played a big part in my weekends partying with friends. Getting tipsy (sometimes trollied) was how I let go and had some fun. At the time, I was a hard working student, athlete in training and very focused. I think having a drink and letting my hair down was how I could escape such focused and controlled behaviour. It gave me a good excuse to let go.

I realised by my mid-20's that I had become reliant on having a drink to 'have a good time' when I met with friends in a social setting. I decided there and then to change the habit. I started occasionally going out and not drinking (making excuses about getting up early or being unable to afford taxis so driving was the best option). It wasn't every social occasion. Now and then I would still allow myself to have a good time with a drink. But my habits were changing. Most time I would have a glass of wine with a meal and a couple of drinks in a social setting. I started to understand I could have fun without alcohol and that I didn't really like it that much.

What I haven't mentioned so far, is that my body has always rejected alcohol. I just chose to ignore it. 95% of the evenings where I would have a drink, I would be violently ill - all night. I'd end up sleeping on the bathroom floor. Sometimes this would happen after just 2 small drinks! I used to brush it off as part of a hangover and as I got older, telling myself and everyone I was just becoming a 'lightweight'. What I didn't know (or should I say 'chose to ignore'), was that my body was struggling - turns out I had an allergy! I also believe my light body doesn't not like the frequency of alcohol and how it affects me spiritually.

Now this is where it gets interesting. When it comes to wellness, not one size fits all. I would never demonise a food or drink group as we all react differently to different things. So I'm going to set this straight by saying I do not think alcohol is necessarily bad for you and think we should all quit it. My relationship with alcohol and my journey to sobriety is personal to me. I'm sharing to highlight just how personal and complex our own wellbeing journeys are. How we need to listen to our inner wisdom more to find out how we individually react to certain foods or drinks.

Do you really listen to yourself?